so sorry, so sorry. It is always so hard. My riding mare had one beautiful foal. He was great; walk on a tarp, jump jumps, graduate from parelli when he was 5 months. He was very curious, with the gentlest personality and he died at 9 months. It was a horrible death. They thought he had been poisoned, so they poured charcoal and oil down him, then it was a 3 day holiday. I did not know he was not drinking, he would put his nose in the water , but could not drink. (I have auto waters) I know better now how to check for dehydration. By the time they got back his cbc he was already too far gone. They tried all medical things possible. We were at the Special Hospital and he fought and fought. They said he had 5% chance to make it and we were stupid. We just told them to keep treating him--I guess we still believed in miracles and medicine. He suffered. I will never do that again. We never did know what killed him.his kidneys failed, but looking back on it 10 years now, I think he ate a piece of plastic in the field and it perferated his gut, because that morning he was sick and would not eat, he had pooped out a little piece of plastic and he was was just dying a slow death- nothing could have saved him. -----They asked me if I wanted just his heart cremated, his head, or the whole thing. I was hysterical. My husband paid for the whole thing and I still have him in a box. *********** U have to believe your baby did not suffer. He just didn't wake up. U did nothing wrong. I had spent a fortune with my big horses with flu straws up their noses, shots, suppliments, and to lose him at 9 months was bad. I can always get very emotional and cry about my little Ali Khan purebred Arabian colt.